06 Dec Nathan’s Story
I came to Teen Challenge a broken, beaten down, spiritually dead, physical disaster that was so depressed that at times I wanted to no longer be living. In those moments, the pain and shame, guilt and regret were so utterly and completely overwhelming that the thought of being able to overcome all of the damage I had caused not only to myself but to all of those that I love and love me seemed absolutely impossible. How wrong I was!
Since committing myself to this program and coming to believe the Word of God, that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior, that the only way to improve my life in any way that has eternal value is to commit myself to Jesus in all ways, I now see that as Philippians 4:13 says, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
I no longer see my life as wasted. I no longer see myself as unredeemable, because through Christ I have been redeemed, through my trials and tribulations, I am being shaped into what I was always meant to be. I no longer need to fear the future because God has a plan for me – I just need follow what He wants and everything will work out. Today, by focusing on Christ, by knowing His power is in me, I know I can do all things that He wants.
I know I have a tough road ahead; that there are a lot of painful things I still need to face – But I no longer fear facing my demons. I am almost to the point of welcoming it. I want my faith to be tested because I know that through the testing of my faith, comes growth. I am being purified in the crucible, the dross is being removed one scoop at a time. I can only be thankful that God has such amazing grace that He would save a wretch like me.
Psalm 51:10,12 “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Restore to me the job of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me.”