A Mother’s Story

A Mother's Story

A Mother’s Story

It’s the week of Mother’s Day and during this special holiday, not only do I think about my own Mother but I think about all the other Mothers I personally know.  I wonder and pray if they are having a blessed time with their children, if they are being recognized, appreciated and blessed by their family.  During this particular Mother’s Day season, three women kept popping into my head…

The first woman is a Mother of a childhood friend who is now a hardcore heroin drug addict and the second is the Mother of my ex-husband who was a drug addict and committed suicide.  Now the third woman is my Mother, who is blessed to celebrate this holiday knowing her daughter is a recovered drug addict and a confident Woman of God.

Do you see the difference in these Mothers?

Even though I was not able to spend the holiday with my Mother, God put a different perspective in my mind; seeing how blessed my Mother is to know her recovered daughter is walking a straight path and how blessed I am to have that restored relationship with her.  On the other hand, these other two important Mothers in my life are crushed, hurting and in pain, sad and depressed because of their children.  I could literally hear the hurt and worry in one of the women’s voices when I talk to her every week.  One of the Mothers is so scared her son is going to jail or die and the other Mother already lost her son dealing with drugs.

Now that I am a recovered and set free drug addict, God has definitely made me more aware with discernment on paying attention to other people’s feelings and emotions.  I am able to discern the hurt and pain in people, like my loved ones, that I was never able to do as a drug addict because of my selfishness and cloudy perception of life.  As drug addicts, we always put our drugs and fixes before anything and anybody!!  However, when we get clean and get right with God, He changes our perspective in how we view our relationships, opening our eyes to other people and how our behaviors/attitudes affect them.  God can definitely put us back into reality, but first, we have to want the change, the new and transformed mindset, the recovery and the freedom from addiction.  We have to want the help from God before God can help us with our relationships.

Hearing the pain in the voices of these Mothers while they tell me their stories, their thoughts and their hurts gives me motivation to stay clean, stay steadfast in God’s plan for my life and in my relationships with loved ones.  It broke my heart when God gave me this revelation during Mother’s Day but it also allowed me to appreciate and be thankful for my recovery and my Mother’s happiness.  This revelation is also encouraging me to minister to these two women, loving on them and helping them through this difficult time.

I know it’s hard, but as addicts we need to keep in the back of our minds the hurt and pain we are causing our loved ones, especially during special holidays like Mother’s Day.  Here are some scriptures to meditate on so you can start thinking about your Mothers and loved ones even more.

Proverbs 19:26-27 “Whoever robs their father and drives out their mother is a child who brings shame and disgrace.  Stop listening to instruction, my son, and you will stray from the words of knowledge.”

Matthew 15:4 “For God said, ‘Honor your father and mother’ and anyone who curses their father or mother is to be put to death.”

Exodus 20:12 “Honor your father and mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.”


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