05 Jan Kailah’s Story
My name is Kailah Temperance Lewin. I’m 24 years old, born in Trenton, New Jersey but grew up in Virginia. This is my story. This life I have been given could be seen as many things. Some people may even say unfair, tragic, broken, defeat, even hopeless. That’s how I used to see it. Just a few words of what the world taught me to be defined as. Words played to me by the events of my life to confirm to a broken heart that it was deemed worthless. So this empty soul began her quest of validation. Thanks to the powers of a praying Mother my heart was always seeking; a seed beneath the surface, just waiting for the cultivation of a hardened heart to break through. That point hit last year and due to a series of events my life changed the moment it ended. The seeker inside of me knew something was missing so I needed to fill what spaces my past had left blank. Living a life of parties, toxic relationships, substance, over working; giving myself over to the world and all things in it, not understanding why I never could find whatever I was searching for. Pushing the limits farther and farther until early last January I overdosed and was placed in Teen Challenge a week later.
This is where my perspective changed, the soil broke in my heart and I began to see God’s hand in my life not just on this mountain when I had given up but all throughout my life. “For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful; all the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139:13, 17. The Word is Truth and the Truth is, God’s plan for your life is so much bigger than our understanding. If you don’t know the purpose of something, you ask its Creator. The seeker inside finally found what it had been longing for. Purpose, Freedom, Passion, Worship, Relationship that is unfailing and unyielding. The perfect love of the Father. Filling of the Holy Spirit and the hidden gifts the Father had instilled before birth. “Set me free from my prison that I may Praise Your name, then the righteous will gather about me because of Your goodness to me.” Psalm 142:7. The people God surrounds me with have impacted me in way I have never thought possible. I love and cherish all of them here and the ones that moved on. I hope to impact future students a fraction of what I have been showed this year. I have never dreamed bigger or loved more recklessly than I do now. I’m excited to walk in His plan for my life with my head high and my hands raised in worship.
We pray Kailah’s story encouraged you! Kailah is going to be interning with us after she graduates and I know Kailah’s story is going to impact other people’s lives.